But now there's a strange twist in this story, and you'll be surprised to hear it comes from the girl's own hand.

Capital News 9 has obtained a copy of Gretchen Perham's diary entries about life after death. Her family handed them out at her wake on Wednesday.

The full list of outtakes from the diary are as follows:

• What is it like to die?


• Does it happen fast, like your life flashes before your eyes?
  


• After your body dies is your spirit able to witness seeing your body put in a grave? And you want to stop it from taking place you can't?


• When you die is it sudden like you don't even know you're dead?


• Does it hurt to be lifted out of your body, or did you not even know it's happening?


• If you're going to heaven do you see a light and you get lifted up to heaven like in the movies?


• Is it possible to have a second chance to live?


• When you're in heaven are you lonely?


• Are you able to look down and watch over your loved ones?


• Does it affect you when everyone's crying over your death?


• Is it like being stabbed when a tear drips down someone's cheek?


• Does everyone die happy?


• What's heaven like? Is it like a dream? Is it too good to be true?


• Can you really fly?


• Does your spirit live on?


• If you didn't worship God but you didn't step down to the devil's level, where are you sent when you die?


• Is everyday you live in heaven like a day you never want to end?


• Is heaven like a paradise?


• Is it crowded?


• Is it peaceful looking?


• I guess I'll never know what it's like to die until I die, and I'm not in no rush.






Diary entries
It's been several weeks and Albany police still have no leads in the stabbing death of a 14-year-old girl.

Perham's body was found with multiple stab wounds a week ago in Albany. Her killer or killers remain on the loose.










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